Moonspun Spins

It’s Saturday morning as I type this. I feel that odd weekend way where you are both tired and rested at the same time. We slept in until 7, which is like noon for most people. And yet it’s 10 am now and after breakfast of a yummy chocolate chip pancake made by my hubby I spent an hour or so in my online classroom waxing all kinds of smart about air power and the second world war. (I know you are jealous, but try to contain yourself) Now I have a weekend stretched before with me ample time to get my butt caught up on reading for next week and a bibliography due next week for my final project. My class will be done in a month…yikes, there is much to do before then!

It’s somewhere in the single digits here, but the sun is out and so that’s just fine. Outside our front windows, the snow pack from the roof has been slowly sliding off during the week and these huge icicles are hanging from it. The sun is hitting the ice and it looks all sparkly and pretty, especially since I am warm and toast inside.

This afternoon RP and I are headed to campus to a hockey game. The Relay for Life committee is going to be at the game giving out prizes and raising awareness and we said we’d help. Plus the hockey team is currently undefeated and games are always great.

I want to clarify my middle of the night post regarding mentioning Lil moonspun going to therapy. Her seeing a therapist has been nothing to do with the comment made by Wren. This was in process before that. FFO has been looking for one and apparently they are both hard to find for kids at all, let alone at good times. Despite my misgivings, I was outvoted by FFO, the teacher and another woman at the school who is a liason for kids trying to find them in the area. Apparently they all think it’s worth lil m’s while to miss 1 1/2 hours of school every other Wednesday, so who was I to argue. I didn’t feel passionate about it, but just not great. And as, FFO admitted yesterday, lil m might not like her and so if that  happens, she will hand over the reigns to someone else to help.

I do know that for me it’s a bit of a control thing. Lil moonspun has the Vermont state medicaid insurance which is great for kids. This is because FFO has defrauded the stated is listed as her parent. The state has no way I guess for me to be categorized as lil m’s parent for these purposes because FFO and I were never (thank goodness) Civil unioned or legally attached. When I went to apply for foodstamps after FFO and I had broken up I put lil m on my form and said half time and the woman told me that FFO had not only already claimed her and was getting the benefits, that there was no way in their system for half-custody. Wtf?   But now since, FFO is in charge of lil m’s insurance (although we could cover her if need be) she has to make the calls and blah blah blah. That’s the part that scares me since she isn’t super organized. But thus far there have not been any big issues.

Lil moonspun, as you all know, does have a bit of a unique and complicated life and would like to talk to someone. Which is fine. It is interesting for me because FFO keeps telling me that lil m is obviously going through something because she is emotional and can’t sleep at her house and cries. Lil m has not recently acted like that here. Although she does sleep walk occasionally (and last week at a most inopportune time) she goes to bed without issue, sleeps through the night and goes through her days just fine. I talk to her about stuff, she talks back and while I know she has mixed feelings about the baby FFO is having, she doesn’t act with me the way that FFO describes. It makes a mama wonder.

In other news, I ran for a 1/2 hour last night on our indoor track. It was the first time I’d run since, well, November I guess. I purposefully asked RP to run with me, because as I told him, I am least likely to back out of a running date with him as opposed to other people. It’s a matter of pride. I was a bit nervous, but it felt fine and today I feel a good sore in my quads, but nothing crippling. Now I just have to do it again and again….ok, can’t think too much about THAT….

I sat down with my calendar and wrote in all the dates for my classes until the end of the year. Ok, the end of my master’s program. Uh, people, we all know  how time flies by. Well when I end the seminar I am in now I’ll be half done and by Thanksgiving I will be ALL done. Which means that between now and then amidst lots of reading and writing and analyzing, I will also be picking a topic and researching and writing a 50 page paper on it. Now I KNOW that I can do it, but it’s alot to think about sometimes.

While I go ponder my life and its choices, I’ll leave you with two pictures. One of the Big ass icicles and one of my hubby who just left for a 13 mile run and who will probably knock down said icicles when he comes back. Happy weekend!