Moonspun Spins

It’s not like me to sit in front of the tv for hours, but as I was walking out of the campus center last night after discussion group and saw ‘breaking news’ and ’shooting’, when I got home I clicked on the cable news networks and watched the reports about the tragedy unfolding at Fort Hood. I sat down to do my required homework post and felt I should shut the tv off.

I couldn’t.

I somehow managed to eek out some fairly coherent thoughts about the Western Way of War, though posted them in my online classroom with the caveat to my classmates that I was unable to fully concentrate since I couldn’t shut the tv off.

All day I have waited for something profound to say about it.

I sat in RP’s office today during my daily visit (after getting the office mail) and pondered looking at his wedding ring on his hand while he was looking for a file on his computer.

I looked at the students I passed who live a military lifestyle and pondered.

I drove to work with the trees dusted with snow and pondered.

I’ve got nothing. Because really who am I to add to the conversation? I am safe and my life has been untouched by unspeakable tragedy. Although I know students here at the University who may well be at Fort Hood in the future deploying overseas, I cannot truly relate to that kind of horror.

I will say that since I never watch shows like cnn or fox or msnbc, it was quite interesting. Here is a bit of a snarky and shallow observations. How come men in the news aren’t held to the same standards of beauty that women are? I mean Campbell Brown from CNN is stunningly, droolingly gorgeous and Rachel Maddox is pretty in a hot lesbian kind of way…but who the hell told Chris Matthews he could yell like that? His voice was so grating I had to change the channel before my ears started to bleed. I couldn’t hear what  he was saying through the din of sheer volume. The guy (somehow shepard?) on Fox was ok looking, but he wasn’t winning any beauty contests in the chance cards on monopoly. Seriously people… Why can’t we have  hot men to oogle over as they tell us how life sucks? (and if you want to read more about why life sucks…go read Lola’s latest brilliant rant)

I don’t know if I am better or worse off from my 4 hours of having the tv on. RP would drift in and out as he was finishing up work and we were both packing for our weekend away. Still….I don’t know.

All I know is what I put on my facebook status is how I really feel I guess “…. stunned by what happened at Fort Hood. Thinking of those lost and those recovering…and wondering why so many time we ask “why?” and have no answers…”

Have a wonderful weekend! I am off for a sleepover, a couple play dates and a family 5k and cheer leading session!